30-06-2020

Good morning. It's 12.56.

Completed one hr of notes for DLD. Target is that to complete remaining 3 hrs of notes and also watch Design and Synthesis of Combinational Circuits as much as possible. One thing is that DLD is interesting to watch but the thing is watching videos again to make notes. From now on, I think making notes parallelly is a better choice. Let me try that today. 

To do that, I have to complete my 3 hrs notes first. Giving myself time till 17.00. Four hrs is sufficient to make 3 hrs notes? Lets see.

It's 21.50 now and I did not make it atleast a letter onto my notes. 17.00 my foot. 

29-06-2020

Earphones plugged in. Listening to nothing. Typo mistakes. Want to put my thoughts on my blog. But no one I know should see. But people with knowledge or who can solve my issues should help.

I do not know my thinking is right or wrong. But it feels good when all who are close to extend wishes but feels bad when when you take help from them. Is it so for all of you?

Okay.. Yesterday I watched almost 4 hrs video and made notes for 2 hrs of it. Good progress. 

Today, NOTHING till now 21.41 is time. Took out laptop at 14.30 after insecurity of life. 

These kind of feelings, dark shades can not be shared with any people. Can you do with someone? 

All these thoughts are running and bombarding my mind. And to get out of it I wasted my entire day from 14.30. And morning I have watched ThePrint. It is addictive. As a whole youtube itself is very time killing. ----> I think I need to distance myself from it. 

Tried to do it just now atleast wanted to cutoff subscriptions other than cs related things. You know what the thumbnail heading given for today's cut the clutter? "Russia, Taliban & Bounties on US Troops/Americans" Fuck. Can I now? Anyway watching it now. Notifications off, let us see could I be in control of it.

Now its 22.18 and even BITS HD is going on in my head. Exam is on August 6&10th. Updated application today. For BITS na it seems like theory questions are bulk. So, IES DRDO and other stuff are useful for this exam. Let me do a seperate blog for it.

What the hell am I doing, apart from studying doing all these shitty stuff. Okay signing off for now.